Top | Skirt (J. Crew, no longer available but similar here: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5) | Bag similar here: 1, 2, 3 | Sunglasses | Flats are Tory Burch, no longer available but similar here: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 | Watch | Ring is J. Crew and no longer available but similar here: 1, 2, 3 | Bracelet is J. Crew and no longer available but similar here: 1, 2, 3 | Earrings are Tory Burch and no longer available but similar here: 1, 2, 3 | Lips are Kate Spade in Precocious Pink
Summer is flying by.
I think the fact that the last few months have been so difficult has made the time pass even faster. We are finally nearing the end of selling our house and buying the new one and I am realizing that I have done very little this summer. I mean I have done an insane amount of “things” but very few of the ones I enjoy and make me feel alive. I think as a wife, mother and businesswoman it is easy to lose yourself in all of the “busyness”. There’s always so much to do that I easily forget what it is that I really want to do. I have spent the last few days really reflecting on the things that I would like to do before summer comes to an end.
I feel as though a little bit of me has been lost these past few years. I have many things that I am passionate about that I have allowed to slip into the background or fade away completely. I don’t want to live that way. I don’t want to wake up twenty years from now and wonder why I didn’t spend my youth doing the things that I love. Now understand, there have been so many incredible things that have taken place this summer. My time and attention have gone to wonderful places. However, there’s more to me than that. There are things about me that I haven’t put an effort into cultivating. Some of the reasons behind this are pretty understandable; I have a lot on my plate. I have two toddlers that are absolutely wonderful but they require a lot of time. Some of the reasons behind why I have cut out things I enjoy are not so good. Over the years I have let go of things about myself that I feel the people around me may not like or enjoy. Things that I feel would be selfish to take the time to do, especially if others don’t find them interesting. It has somehow in the moment been easier to just let go of the things I love and the things that make me, me. But it has taken it’s toll. It isn’t healthy. It isn’t wise.
As I said, I have spent some time thinking about the things I miss, the things I enjoy and the things that I would like to try. Some of it is so simple. I like being outside. At any point in the day, doing anything, just being outside. A simple walk, a visit to a garden, a mountain hike. The only times that I go outside are to walk the dog or to play with the kids. I enjoy both of those things, but they aren’t for me and they are rarely relaxing.
I am not going to do this to myself anymore. I am young and healthy and I don’t want to waste it. I want to use it to be active, to explore my world, to make art, to dance, to learn…the list goes on and on.
Let’s do something together, let’s make a list of the things we enjoy and the things we want to do.
Let’s make a list of these things and vow to start incorporating them into our lives. It doesn’t need to be everything at once, we need to be realistic, but we also need to stay true to who God created us to be and to spend time nurturing our souls. It is so important. We will be better people for it and that “good” will flow over into every other aspect of our lives.
I’ll be working on my list and thinking of ways to begin. I am excited for this journey. I am anxious to delve into my heart and search out the things that make me come alive.
Wear what you love. Listen to what you like. Eat how you want to eat. Talk about things that interest you. Take time to learn the skills you’ve always wanted to learn.
It will be worth it, I promise. To you, and to myself.
Photography by Michaella Photography